Stuff A week to go! I'm getting pumped for next weekend already. Maybe a little too excited 'cause it's 2.30pm and I haven't done any revision today, just planning my life from next weekend onwards, and talking to Lukey about guys/girls/music/movies/parties/. The whole reason I buggered off home early from a party last night was because I planned to study all day today... Like that would ever happen anyway!! I just can't deal with the guilt of the possibility that I might have studied.

Exams so far have been tolerable. I'm suprised how relaxed we all are. Sleeping in, late night telephone calls and mid exam parties. I like it this way :) We have also met a bunch of interesting people from this school in Negombo who seem a laugh. All is good, all is good.

This is something slightly off topic but last night I realised that people who like to complicate things really annoy me. Not being an opinionated fuck or anything. They just do.

Xmas Special: Hugh Laurie (as the Prince Regent)©BBC

Possibly the funniest British actor in my opinion. In a league of his own. I can watch the Blackadder series' over and over again and not get bored (ok the first season isn't that good but the 2, 3, and 4 are brilliant). Just thought I would mention him 'cause I have found a new TV series that I can actually bear to watch. :p. House is funny. Hugh Laurie pulls off being American really well.

Oh yeah, does anyone remember the song Alright by Supergrass? I was thinking about a summer maybe nine or ten years ago and this song was all that was on the radio. Had the urge to download it. Lovin' it... and the random memories of being 7!

Check out Anjalie's art, she deserves a shout for being so talented... and cool :)

That's all for me now. Just a bit of everything for the sake of writing... in the hope that I'll have cured at least one person from boredom for a minute or so.

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  Who remembers? A few days I was on the phone with my best friend Luke, we hadn't chatted properly for ages and we ended up talking for nearly two hours about the randomest shit out there.

Sometimes it feels so good just to talk and talk and talk without a care in the world... especially when you are comfortable with the person on the other end. I have this random phobia of calling people I don't know well, like aunts and uncles I haven't seen in years... or simply people I've just met or haven't spent enough time with. Annelie knows all about this! So basically yeah, it felt great to talk to you Luke. :)

Wandering yet again!!

Luke and I started talking about cartoon and tv shows we used to watch as kids... and the memories literally came FLOODING back. These are the days before the retarded Telebubbies!!

The Moomins... I Lurvved the moomins... and it really pissed me off when I went to visit my grandparents in the Netherlands and they would only show it on the German channel as "Die Moomins" Argh!! The Germans and their bloody dubbing!!

The guy in the top hat is Moominpapa. The cool calm and collected one.









The Magic Roundabout??? Another CLASSIC!!

Oh yeah and apparently there are all these subliminal messages and they are all meant to be on drugs hehe







WHAT A LEGEND!!!!!!!!
















Papa smurf is the man













The Clangers- I think my dad watched them when he was younger too.
They didn't talk, just made all these trippy whistling noises. And lived on the moon.
Actually I wouldn't mind watching a few episodes again sometime. That goes for all these shows actually.  ¶ 8:36 pm 6 comments

  Decisions decisions decisions... Every day we make thousands of decisions about anything and everything, most of them subconsciously, but we do make them. Right now it's 1pm and today I have already made more decisions than countable, although the majority of them are significantly insignificant.

I decided to get up and drink a glass of water at 6am this morning instead of shutting my eyes and drifting back into the wonders of dreamland. Dreams....ahhhhhhhhhh...Love 'em. I had the most bizare dream last night. It involved a guy who appeared to be exactly the same as Luke, he was even called Luke!! The only difference being he had a different nose and was not the Luke I know, so I started making all these random connections that he was Luke's half brother (?!?), and then he whipped out all these random photos which confused me even more... Going off on a slight tangent I will return to my point...

After arising from my stinking pit I decided sit and revise the monotony of the physics text book. This was the alternative to relaxing and listening to music as I would much rather be doing. Life's a bitch eh?

I decided to make my mum a Mother's Day card and 10 minutes ago I decided to stop revising and vaguely entertain myself by writing this blog. I can see you're bored already. Tough luck, I'm not!!

In the process of writing this down I have realised that most decisions we make are based on what we feel we need. I got up and drunk a glass of water because I was thirsty, my body told me I was lacking fluid, and I needed to replenish it, so I got up and grabbed a glass.

I decided to revise because I'm in the middle of my O Levels. In hindsight anyone can say
"Man, O Levels don't mean anything at all, you shouldn't get worked up about them!! And at any rate they are they easiest things everrrr!" Shut up. When they are the first major exams you are taking they do mean quite a lot. I need to revise because I want to do my personal best, that's mentally how my mind works. If you aren't going to do something well through sheer laziness, but you are capable of doing it well, why bother to do it at all?? I just don't see the point in that(ok this only applies to public exams, I don't give about anything else hehe). So therefore, from my perspective at least, I decide to revise because I need to. I need that sense of personal satisfaction when they are all over. I also need to justify going to school for the last two years. Imagine wasting two years of your life and getting nothing out of it. Make sense?

As for the Mother's Day card, I decided to make one because I feel I need to show my appreciation for the one person who is always there for me no matter what. I know Mother's Day is a commerical thing and just another way for companies to make big bucks, and many feel that you shouldn't conform to it.... I however, do feel that at least once a year I need to say thanks for being there and sorry for being such a bad daughter (ha ha). Anyway, how am I supporting these mega businesses if I make a card myself? I suppose there is some way of proving me wrong.... but yet again I am drifting away from the point. Sorry :(

FINALLY: MY POINT
I decided to write this blog because I needed to get my thoughts on paper about something that has been bothering me for quite a while, my way of dealing with it. Maybe if I write it down it'll put things in perspective and then I will be able to make a right decision and not end up regretting anything. Maybe it won't. Either way writing my thoughts down will have amused me for at least half an hour by the time this is finished.

A Level choices. How is one supposed to decide what subjects one wants to take when we have no idea of what we want to do in the future, why we need those subjects. It's such a huge thing to jump on poor unsuspecting 16 year olds like myself. lol. I reckon we consciously decide to do something only when we have some idea of the outcome, the result, so therefore we can justify it. You could argue that if you play Russian Roulette you have no idea of the outcome. This is true to a certain extent, but you do actually have a large idea indeed. You either live or you die. Simple. Please don't ask me why people feel they need to play RR, because that goes beyond me.

Back to A Level choices. What if you have NO idea what you want to do? That's completely normal right? Or there are just too many things that interest you. I'm finding it hard to decide what subjects to take next year because I have no idea why I would need to do them, as I have no idea what I want to do in Uni and subsequently in later life. One day, after watching a medical drama on TV I think to myself that medicine would be cool. The next day I'm thinking Law, the next maybe Psychology, and the day after I'm on to History & Politics. What about Maths eh? I managed to narrow myself down to four subjects that would pretty much cover all of those things that I am interested in; History, Chemistry, Biology and Maths. Maybe not the best fit for any one of them but at least it keeps my options open right?

Then Charlieeee(Mr Shearer, our delightful and over competitive director of studies) called me to his office and imparted his wisdom. He told me that he didn't imagine that I'd do medicine and sees me as more of a humanities sort of person, and reckons I should do Economics instead of Chemistry. What the hell does he know of what I want to do??!?! What if I did drop Chemistry and by the time I'm 19 and about to begin a degree in pop music between October 1996 and January 1997 (my new found interest, universities are catering to everyone these days eh?), I decide that ACTUALLY I want to be a doctor, as I have matured emotionally and felt I needed to help people (!!??!). It'd be a right kerfuffle.
What to do then? Chemistry or Econ?

Conclusion: I'm utterly aimless and have no direction. Strangely however, after writing this (very longwinded and extremely confusing) blog down it feels down right good. Where's the excitement in having planned out your life at age 16? I have friends who know exactly what they are going to do when they leave school... right up until they die actually. Well rather their parents do. A bit scary if you ask me. With things slightly in perspective, I think I'll just go with the flow and hope for the best...  ¶ 1:39 pm 12 comments

  Setting a good example to his daughter...   ¶ 12:07 am 1 comments

  Urgh! The first O Level exam was yesterday, Maths paper 1. It was ok, one or two seriously messed up questions that left me really pissed off.. just couldn't figure them out for the life of me... Otherwise all was good.

Luke and I arrived at the BMICH for the English language paper today about half an hour early and waited around the entrance for everyone to come so we could all go in together. By ten to four another 5 people had turned up and we headed for the hall to see if the rest of the gang were waiting there. Nope. No one was in sight. Strange hmmmm... I think it was Luke, or maybe Fuzzy had the smart idea for us just to go into the hall since the exam was going to start in five minutes. We opened the door and the room was empty. FUUUUCK!! No tables, no chairs, no nothing.
We all ran out frantically trying to find where the hell our exam was about to start but all the randomers who had arrived minutes before had disappeared!! I actually cannot explain how much of a panic we were, months of preparation leading up to the big thing and we couldn't find the damn hall!!

We followed some wild goose chase that took us I swear ten times around the BMICH main building, to the examiners canteen, back to the entrance and then to the Islamic Studies movie room (?!?!). It wasn't a pretty sight. Imagine a whole lot of sweating teenagers just galloping around like wild horses. LMAO

When we finally got on the right track to the little BMICH building some staff guy called us back and we rushed back up hundreds of stairs (ok it wasn't hundreds but by this time I was dying)only to find that we had to go all the way back to the little building. URGHHHH!!

We ran into to exam room and 400 faces sneered up at us!! It didn't help that the floor of the hall was nice shiney granite. SCREECH SCREECH clatter clatter. Yup! We couldn't have been any quieter either. The examiners looked at us reprovingly and told us to get to work... One of the more awkward moments of my life...

Anyway if anyone is reading this im going to bed now. Got "abusive" exams tommoro. Lit and Maths p2. Please send positive vibes.........  ¶ 10:02 pm 8 comments

  KKK- White Power   ¶ 12:09 am 4 comments

  Some purpose amidst the aimlessness... I just realised how incredibly bad I am at making any sort of resolutions, New Years ones or any other. I had forgotten about Lent this year until at the beach with some friends from England, 3 days before Easter Sunday. I offered them some chocolate and the reply I received was that they had given it up, for Lent. LENT!!??
It's not that I can't stick to resolutions, I just never get round to making them, or I forget that I'm supposed to make them. So for the first time ever I am going to give myself something to work towards, and hopefully I will stick to them.

Post-Exam Resolutions:

1. Eat less - there will be no excuse for comfort eating (ha ha)
2. Exercise more - i will no longer be "studying" all the time
3. Be friendier to Yaeesh's cousins & other numbered Jihads. They don't mean to be annoying.
4. Do not take anger out on brother
5. Be nice to brother
6. Listen to what Luke is saying even if it doesn't interest me ;-)
7. Remember what I tell people so that they do not have to hear my stories 100 times over
8. Enjoy the freedom while it lasts, do things i usually wouldn't and be adventurous
9. Be patient with the very (very) few that piss me off
10. Spend as much time out of Colombo with friends as I can, starting with the trip to Chrissy's estate
11. Re-introduce myself to the TV, and find a TV series that I like. Try not to get too pissed off with all the adverts that decide to pop up just as the the programme is getting interesting
12. Read more books, preferably that I haven't read before. Starting with errrr...
13. Get some work experience somewhere, anywhere!!
14. Spend as much time as i can with people that are leaving
15. Stop leaving my phone on silent so that i actually see my messages as soon as they arrive, not three days later
16. Work on my blonde moments, and don't believe everything that people say
17. Help out with SwimLanka at some point during the very long break
18. Go for the hash run every week like I used to, and enjoy watching old people make jokes about their sexual fantasies
19. Go to Amsterdam during the summer and do everything you are supposed to do when in such a great city-not just visit the fam!
20. Spend at least a week on the beach, soaking up the sun and having a good time!!
21. Watch movies!! And actually get around to watching Munich!

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