UCL does care The current Israel/Palestine has caused a bit of a stir among students in London and around the UK over the past month. In particular the London universities were very active, with lecture theatre occupations and big protests. The students at my university failed to organise anything so grand (although we did raise thousands of pounds for the people of Gaza), but THIS turned up in our main quad yesterday. We don't know who did it, but I think it's an awesome show of defiance.
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I am the instigator
Parents are always eager to blame other children for their child's mistakes and shortcomings, real or imaginary. Maybe it's making excuses for their lousy parenting. I don't know. I didn't mean that. I think they just want to feel they are doing the right thing and it's someone else who is responsible.
Other peoples' parents used to think I was a bad influence because I was fairly open with the places I went, the people I hung out with and the things I did. Not that they were anything at all to be ashamed of. Their children did things on the sly, but I was seen as the instigator. This was back in the day. I managed to redeem myself after o levels when I proved I was indeed not a waster nor academically mediocre. Suddenly I was no longer a problem. It makes me laugh.
I am 18 years old now. An adult in most people's eyes. My parents treat me as an adult, as they have done for the last few years. I hang out with who I wish, do what I wish and say what I wish. Most of my friends are my age too.
Joan Baez is touring Europe this summer and I might just be able to catch her! So far only the July dates have been released, during which I was planning to be in Sri Lanka but hopefully there will be some August dates relatively close to home.
If there was any artist in the entire history of music I could see perform live it would be Joan. Her words, her own or not, mean so much to me. Through her voice travels a kind of beauty you don't come across very often.
I would never call myself a feminist but her bitterness towards men is something that at this stage in my life I can understand. Not that I have any real reason to, but you know how things go.
Mr Dylan is right.
With my school life edging closer to its grand finale, I realise I am facing it with mixed emotions. On the one hand I feel I'm ready to leave, and have been for quite a while. This is not to say I find myself mature beyond my years, but more that I've outgrown the anxious sentinel that has been a major influence on my life for the last six years.
I'm someone who will look back on my years in school and smile as they were on the most part very happy. We used to have prolonged and frenetic fits of grumbling about our "cheap school", and get quite upset when things just didn't seem fair. These thinned out the older we became until we came to accept the institution as a force which most unfortunately for us, could not be reckoned with. I think we secretly deemed the nepotic leadership too much for us to break, though none of us would ever admit it. I smile when I think of those days.
University life beckons. The times are a changin' as Mr Dylan so rightly lamented, though I'm not quite sure he'd approve of my use of his fine words. What ever that change is it'll be the end of life as we know it, and that gives me an excited, albeit slightly nostalgic state of mind.
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Two years on and exam season is back with a vengeance. I started blogging a lot during my O levels and in hindsight I guess it was a sort of stress reliever. When you're 16 they tell you that O levels are the most important exams you will ever take, so me who was at that point petrified of ending up in a cardboard box, took it to heart. When I'm stressed I procrastinate and procrastination took on a shape in the form of blogging. It's quite funny how when I have all the time in the world I don't even think of writing anything, but when time really is of the essence I miraculously find time to write a lot about nothing much at all. So yeah, exam season is back and hence so am I.
When I was 16 I blogged about A level choices. I was confused and angry that I was being forced to make a decision about something that could have quite a significant impact on my future. I got over it though, and I'm quite happy with what I went with in the end. This time around I managed to decide without much pain what I'd like to study in uni, which is a step forward in itself. Though there are a few fleeting moments when I think I applied for that course just to prove myself (haven't quite worked out to whom yet), but I'm sure I'm being silly. The problem now is where I'd like to study. I've got three feasible choices that I've narrowed it down to, though they aren't all equally feasible if you get what I'm saying.
Utrecht would be kind to my parent's bank account but it doesn't offer the exact course I'd like to study and the campus reminds me of a high school.
Edinburgh would also but to a lesser extent be kind to my parents, it's easy to get home to Holland, and the city is quite beautiful though the hefty rah contingent I've heard about really puts me off. I just can't deal with it.
London is well, London. I have this feeling that university there would be unlike anything else, and although expensive I'm sure I could manage.
It's not like I have to decide right now, I do have a couple more months to mull things over. I do know that wherever I go I'll have fun but I can't help feeling that this is will have significantly more impact on my life than my silly 16 year old worries.
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Friday, February 29, 2008
Albums
With the discovery of Azureus along with finally getting a decent internet connection, I have begun downloading whole albums instead of a song here and there. I hope, rather I feel that I'm making up for the sin of downloading music, which has raped music of the album.
My favourite albums for the time being are as follows: